International Women’s Day

 

“I used to think I was the strangest person in the world but then I thought there are so many people in the world, there must be someone just like me who feels bizarre and flawed in the same ways I do.  I would imagine her, and imagine that she must be out there thinking of me too.  Well, I hope that if you are out there and read this and know that, yes, it’s true I’m here, and I’m just as strange as you.”    ―      Frida Kahlo

Dear Frida,

 Thank you. I feel strange sometimes too; bizarre and flawed. Then I remember we all are. We are uniquely strange, and I have decided to drink in my “strangeness”. When I give up the idea that what I say or do has to be appealing to everyone or anyone, I am on my way. I relish that I am beginning to know what enough is in my own life and that my strength as a woman does not come from a single thing outside myself.

Here is a writing I did in 2009 that marked a beginning of my understanding of myself in relation to the whole around me. This is where I made the connection that I did not have to look far to find peace, compassion, power, riches, love, beauty, or myself:

“So much happens at the curve in the driveway. Right there, where the driveway could be straight, yet it curves and opens up to a new view.  Right there, is where I can feel the trees whispering, see and hear the chickens rustling in the woods, observe the white cat lounging on the old trailer, watch the goats kick up their heals,  or notice that the sky is full of stars. It is an amazing moment of being satisfied and immersed in what is, and without knowing it, letting go of what is coming or going. It is just me and the full and satisfying moment. It is like a breath of fresh air that fills and feeds every part of me, giving me exactly what I need and want, without thought, desire or pursuit. “ 

Sincerely, Denise Arrell-Rosenquist

 

Balance

 

“If the world were merely seductive, that would be easy. If it were merely challenging, that would be no problem. But I arise in the morning torn between a desire to improve the world and a desire to enjoy the world. This makes it hard to plan the day.”   E.B. White
Chris finished the gate and put up the miscellaneous goat and chicken equipment and I mucked the barn.
 I love the new gate, Every time I swing it open, to visit the goats, I feel and see the art in it. It is beautiful. The goats seem to appreciate their new trough (which was picked out by Grandpa Jim), Here is a picture of Luna and Areida, with their happy flickering tails, eating their grain:
The goats have been exploring the outdoors, in the run. It was fun to look out the window and see them enjoying the sunshine.
We are using the veggie crates from North Carolina as nesting boxes. I just set them up yesterday, and this morning there was an egg in one of them. Chris is building some more nesting boxes this weekend so the chickens have plenty of places to lay eggs. I have been finding a couple of eggs everyday in the goat’s sleeping area and surprisingly their have not been any broken.
We purchased 10 more chicks this past weekend. We got a variety of Reds, bantam’s (which included two Old English; Carol’s breed) and misc. pullets. Our goal is to keep ourselves in plenty of eggs, extra eggs to give away to neighbors, and some to sell. I will be ordering 10 more Easter Egg chicks so that we get the variety in color. They are the ones that lay blue, green or pink. 
So, today I try to balance enjoying this wonderful day with my daughters; learning, reading, loving one another, finding out who we are one day at a time, cooking and eating good food together, listening to each other, reaching out to others, and being grateful. Planning the day is a challenge for me too Mr. White…There are so many paths to take, yet I am beginning to see that the most important ones can be the ones unknown to me as I begin my day. As long as I stay open and keep taking action that the Dalai Lama refers to as “wholesome”( the actions that come from one’s own self-discipline; not the discipline that is thrust onto us from an outside source or our undisciplined mind) and continue working on my “mental outlook” that is not contingent on outside forces, like ideas, people, and places that I am powerless over.